November 16, 2023

Me: Lord, I come before you sad and repentant. I am anxious over personal affairs, but affairs out of my control. Please help. Do I offer you my anxieties? Yes, I’ll do that, dear Lord, please if this worry helps in some way, please accept it. If it does not, please relieve it. I am sorry for the many anxieties I must cause you. Or maybe not anxieties, but hurts. I’m sorry for all the hurts I cause you.

Lord, the other day in church I felt Your Heart beat and saw You hanging on the Cross, in my mind’s eye I guess. It was so anguishing. So lamenting. So sad. I could have weeped. Really it made me feel sick to see such pain in You. But I also know it is Love. And you were showing me Your Love. For only an Amazing Love that my little brain cannot comprehend could endure such pain. And for three hours on the Cross!

Lord, I love You, but I can never love You as well as You love me. If only I could take away One Tear of Your Sorrow, it would be a relief. Please, God. I have no place to ask because I am nothing, but if I could relieve just One Tear of Your Sadness I cause you on that Cross.

Lord God Almighty Father: Daughter, daughter do not despair! For I AM Love, and I love you. Each of My Children I love. You cannot fathom or contemplate the enormity of My Love.

Me: Lord, so many are despairing! Please give relief!

Lord God Almighty Father: Bring forth the fruits of your labor. Do not let your prayers cease. The pastures have turned dry, and the fruit has grown plump to pick.* My sheep must depart and find new pastures within My Sacred Heart and that of My Mother’s. Do not despair in this. For you are coming home. You do not need to understand all. Pray and fast for your lost brothers and sisters to come into the Fold of My Mother’s Mantle and into My Heart/Her Heart. For We are joined.

Come into My Heart. Come into My Heart.

Me: Lord, how exactly? Prayer I know. Are there certain words? The Act of Consecration to your Immaculate and Sacred Hearts?

Lord God Almighty Father: Contemplate My Passion. Contemplate My Death and Resurrection. Contemplate Me.

Me: Lord, I see you on the Cross with Mary to your right. You are in anguish. Your heart beats I feel. Mother Mary, please comfort Your Son! Let Your Gaze of Love and your United Hearts in Your Yes to taking us on as your children comfort Him. For He is our Triumph and He is the Victory! This is His hours of Triumph with his Yes to the Father. Please comfort Him and through Him as our Savior, let our wails of anguish here in the desert also be comforted.

Mama Mary: Daughter, daughter, here I Am. I gladly give My Yes to My Son, My Jesus.

Me: Lord, I love you. Mary, I love you. Please stay with me. Never let me depart from you or distance myself with sin. Pray for us sinners, dear Mary, to Your Son. I love You both. Thank you.

*My note: I didn’t understand this line and was questioning  whether I misheard it or not. But then, God said I didn’t need to understand all, right as I was thinking this. So please just pray for discernment as I am not sure.

Sept. 4, 2023

Me: Lord? I hear you calling. Yes, Lord?

Please forgive my many sins and help me to listen.

Lord God Almighty Father: Daughter, the night comes. Pray much, little servant, do not compartmentalize My Love. Be with Me always. I will never forsake you. Be at My side. Kneel before Me. Do not forsake Me.

Me: How can I be at Your side and kneel before You? How can it be both?

Lord God Almighty Father: Daughter, what you ask is simple. I Am in your heart, My Blood and Water pour from My Side, and I am your King. Can’t I be in three places at once? Live for Me alone, and these mysteries will unravel before you. I Am Three in One. Why cannot you be, sharing in My Glory, My Mercy and honoring Me as King all at once too?

Me: This is hard for me to understand.

Lord God Almighty Father: The Holy Trinity is not a mystery for you (to understand?) but for faith alone. I ask you to strengthen your faith.

Me: Yes, Lord.

What does it mean the night comes? Tonight?

Lord God Almighty Father: Child, be prepared for the fall of many. Man’s humility is naught, and it will be many men’s ruin.

Me: Lord, please protect me and my family and all those who love you.

Lord God Almighty Father: Child, you are thinking of worldly ways. Am I not a Father? Don’t I know what’s best for My Children? Trust in Me even if you see horrors on earth now.

Me: Horrors? I don’t like that. No. No, horrors.

Lord God Almighty Father: Daughter, you are already living in a time of horrors. Abortion is a horror. I weep for My Little Children.

Me: Oh, Lord. I’m sorry. I know it is. Please Lord, help the little babies and those in danger. Please take them all to be with You.

Lord God Almighty Father: Daughter, on the Cross My Son said His “yes” for you. He felt the coldness of-I see Jesus bloody on the Cross and the moment a shadow fell on Him and He said My God, My God why have You forsaken Me?-life without Me. It was in this moment He took all of humanity into His Being and offered it unto Be. He was in shadow, yes. (Referring to what I saw.) It was in this moment He severed ties and became the Word Made Flesh Alone and then died. It was only through this that the gates of hell could be opened to Him to descend and then ascend to Heaven. Yes, He fought for you and won, Your Glorious King! How little you believe! How little you know and understand. But just trust in Me, daughter. Like My Son did. He gave His Everything unto death on the Cross. Your everything is already won through him, so be not afraid.

You never have to be apart from Me…Rejoice! This great mystery I share with you today to teach you honor and glory for Your Risen King! Genuflect and be glad! Alleluia! (God is very proud and pleased with His Son’s Sacrifice and Obedience.)

Me: Amen, Lord! Alleluia and thank you, Jesus! Even if I don’t understand, I thank you!

Lord, I’m sorry I’m such a bad listener. Thank you for calling me. I heard you in the night the other night. Was there something from that night you want me to write down?

Lord God Almighty Father: Daughter, listen and write. That was what I was calling you to do. Be ready for Me always. Nothing is more important than writing My Words here. You need to remember to always put Me first. You are my servant. I expect you to be prepared at all times. Repent and keep the Sacraments. This will keep your heart ready and your hearing better. Seek Me in Eucharistic Adoration. Why are you not already doing this regularly? My servant wonders. You cannot have two masters; the world is a lousy master! Stay with Me and you will be calm. You will have peace. You will understand your path, even if it is not easy. So much time you spend on the what ifs, on the mind, and on the problems of the world. Where is your focus on Me? I am a jealous God. I will have no others before Me! I will crush your other masters, so do not have them!

Me: You would crush the world? Oh, Lord, please no! I live here!

Lord God Almighty Father: Daughter, My Hand will be stayed no more. Repent and tell your brothers and sisters to repent. Come to Me and hide in My Son’s Sacred Heart and Mary’s Immaculate Heart. There is your home. Not the world. Be with Me. Be at My Side and kneel before Me and especially come into My Heart. For I Am Three in One and One in Three and so must you too become more than just one. You must submit as servant, as prophet and as daughter. You are mine alone, child. I love you, and none shall come before Me.

Me: Yes, Lord. Alleluia!

Dear angels and saints, please sing with me! Alleluia! Our God is Good, and He is Good alone! Alleluia! Praise be to God, our King! He has found his servant wanting, and he calls me still. He is Mercy, and I honor, love and obey Him! Alleluia! He is our God! Let no other god come before Him!

Please, God, help your servants, especially the priests and religious. I know they are being attacked severly. Please give them courage and love. Thank you, Lord.

I hear trumpets and songs of praise. Our King comes to be praised. Praise Him on bended knee! Alleluia! Amen.

May 28, 2023

This was a dream.

I was on my parents front porch overlooking the yard. There were friends, family and strangers in the front yard. We were gathering for a holiday or something like that. It was night but everyone was busy quickly picking a flower and putting it in their hair or on them in some way and helping others do the same. My sister gave me a flower, and I put it in my hair. In the yard was a giant alter to Mary, with a large white statue of her on it. There was an arch of flowers around the statue. Finally, a band played. It was enjoyable but there was going to be a message read afterwards and that was really the important bit. After the music, some people left or entered the house and I was worried for them if they wouldn’t make it back for the message. And I was told Christmas? Esmeralda?/ Esperanza? de Maria. (I heard this and didn’t see it, so I am not sure exactly what the words were. I know I heard “de Maria”. The whole thing sounded Spanish or another language than English.)

My note: I didn’t understand this message in the dream, so I looked it up on Google. I could find no specific Christmas message. I did find there’s a St. Esmeralda, but that didn’t seem right. I also found that there are two people named Esperenza de Maria. The one, Servant of God Maria Esperanza Bianchini, had seen Mary at this place called “Finca Betania”, Venezuela. And this place was pictured as having a statue of Mary and an alter with an arch of flowers. This was the same alter and statue and arch of flowers as in my dream. So while I still don’t understand the word “Christmas” or if there is Spanish word that sounds like the English pronunciation Christmas, I think looking up Servant of God Maria Esperanza Bianchini would be good. While you’re at it, please read about Blessed Maria Esperenza de Jesus’s life too. They both seem like they were amazing, God-loving women!

The next night before bed I asked for clarification of this dream.

I then had this dream of being on the phone and being told to seek Mary. I didn’t know where to go. And I was told not to worry and to turn left. Well, I left where I was and went out on a road and turned left. There was a large statue of Mary in a courtyard and aso there were my sister and mom and people I didn’t know. The people were handing out small paper cups of flowers to the people who arrived, like me. At first I thought the flowers were a gift for me and the other people receiving them. But then I took them and arranged them and they turned into pussy willows in a beautiful glass vase and then I put this beautiful arrangement before the huge Mary statue. Then I layed down in front of it and said the word, “Esperenza” and closed my eyes. That ended the dream.

I later learned the word esperanza means hope. Maybe Mary wants some flowers and for us to have hope. Please, as always, pray for discernment!

June 25, 2023

Me: Lord, thank you for leading me towards Your Words earlier. I am sorry I don’t do better and pray more. Please help me pray with my family and sincerely. Lord, are there any words?

Lord God Almighty Father: Child, you listen to such nonsense when My Voice is calling you. Why? Why do you stray so? It is your choice to be away from Me.

Me: Lord, help me to will You, to want what You want.

Lord God Almighty Father: Child, your heart is troubled, but it does not need to be so. Come into Me (into My Sacred Heart). Find your comfort there. I await you and all My children. Bring Me comfort with your presence as I never stray from you. Blessed Mother comforts you. How are you to be lonely? The saints and angels pray beside you. Join in their praises of Me, and you will always be joyous. Yes, it is that simple.

Me: What about people with depression or anxiety or schizophrenia even? How can praising You bring this joy to them? To everyone?

Lord God Almighty Father: You are not alone. And, yes, the depressed person will still be depressed except for now there is hope. And hope can grow. And so pray for your brothers and sisters so that their hope grows and the burdens brought to them by the beast, the chains of what you call mental illness, can one day be overcome. And this is not to say a person is not to be believed if they are suffering in this way any more than you are not to believe a broken bone. But prayer, prayer can take many forms and miracles come in many ways and belief and hope are important. How can it not be so? So remember your brothers and sisters and pray for them and let them know. For a friend is important too. Even one in Heaven that you may not see. So believe and pray.

Me: Thank you.

The next evening, I asked: Tell me about prayer taking many forms, please.

Lord God Almighty Father: A child can praise Me with a smile and know that I Am God and they are safe and loved. A nun or a priest may pray for hours in front of the sacricity?/ Sacrament?. You pray many times folding the laundry, and I am there with you. Or songs. I love songs of praise! Bells. Incense. Fasting. Mortifications. The Sign of the Cross. Gestures of love towards your brothers and sisters. Giving. The Beatitudes. Reading My Story. Thinking about Me. Talking to Me. The Rosary. Your daily prayers and your daily duty. Your thank you. These are some of the ways you can pray.

My note: As always, please pray for discernment.

May 23, 2023

Me: Lord, I don’t know if you have anything to say to me. I haven’t heard You in so long. Maybe I won’t hear You again? I hope I do hear You. Lord, I need to be better for You. Please help me.

St. Peregrine, please help and pray for me and (personal intention).

Help me to have peace, Lord. Please. Help me have peace. Please let there be peace on earth and let it begin with me. St. Francis, please pray for me and for us here on earth. Help me to ask to be a helper instead of always asking for help. Help me be a peacemaker instead of begging for peace in my heart alone. I am selfish. Help me to do better like you. Please pray to God for Me, St.Francis and St. Peregrine and St. Ann and St. Teresa and St. Padre Pio and St. Joseph, of course and Mary Queen of Heaven and Earth and all the angels and saints. Please help me and help us all.

Let there be peace on earth and let it begin with me…(St..Francis prayer)

Lord, have mercy. Christ, hear us. Lord, have mercy. Please forgive me my many sins.

Lord God, the Son: Child, child your heart is heavy. But sing, sing the praises of the Lord! For a new day arrives, and you are still here to love and serve the Lord! How glorious this is to serve your King! Bring Him your best fruits and be glad! What a joy to serve a Merciful King who loves you! Behold! He has showered you with gifts! Look at His servants waiting on Him. Behold, your Glorious King! Do not be afraid! Rejoice and be glad.

May 6, 2023

Me: Lord, I haven’t heard you in some time. Are there any words you want me to share or…?

Lord, here I am…sorry I am not listening.

What do you want me to write?

Lord God Almighty Father: Child, you need to come to me with a humble heart.

Me: Yes, Lord.

I will be your conduit.

April 3, 2023

This was a dream last night. I saw beautiful Mother Mary wearing blue and white, standing above and to the left of an image. Then she moved directly to the top of the image and then finally to the right. She moved like how the sun moves in the sky from dawn to dusk in a day. In the center below Mary was an image of an exponential growth line graph. I knew the growth line was representing all the hardships and evils on Earth and how they are now quickly and dramatically increasing. For a long time the levels shown were very minuscule and were increasing slowly over time, but now it’s like some some threshold has been reached, and as a result things are escalating up very quickly now.

I also saw the Eucharist in a church on the alter with a brilliant, golden white light shaped like an encompassing globe emanating from it. Beyond that light, which didn’t reach much farther than the alter itself, was darkness, even though it was in a church building. I felt a strong desire to stay focused on that globe of light and the Eucharist at its center and not even to look at the darkness. The darkness felt very oppressive and scary.

Please pray for discernment as always.

March 12, 2023

I had a vision upon waking. It was of a mound covered with green plants with small, purple flowers. I heard a voice say, “These flowers will cover the dead.” Then in front of the mound I saw the word, “Balkans”.

The next day I did happen to see examples of small flowers with the same type of petals three times. Once on the piece of jewelry I had picked out to wear to Mass. It was a bracelet with a St. Benedict medal on it. Around the outside of the medal was a flower design that I hadn’t noticed before. I thought previously it was just a pretty design until I inspected it closer. Then at Mass, a lady sitting directly in front of me was wear a scarf with the little bluish/purple flowers on it. Finally, later in the day while walking on the sidewalk, I passed a large tree and underneath of it was a mound of green plants with purple flowers on it, already in bloom.

Now, this vision I was very hesitant to write down, even after seeing three different examples of the flowers directly afterwards. I’ll tell you why. At no time were there words, like “Pray for…” given to me. So I’m not sure about this message and where it came from. The intention if not from God could be to mislead to scare. Please pray for discernment as always!

February 20, 2023

I was at a concert and saw Blessed Mother Mary above everyone’s heads and above the stage. She was clothed as Our Lady of Guadalupe. She appeared over the top of the stage, to the left and to the right, always large and above everything. I don’t remember if she appeared to the left or top first, but she was on the right last. When she was above and to the right, I saw below her at about eye height coming straight at me, a frightening image of Famine on a galloping dark horse. If Mary hadn’t had there, I wouldn’t have been able to stand. I’m sure I would have fainted with fright! But as it was with Mary there, I felt not afraid but just saw this image as something I was to see and relay my seeing. The whole thing was very brief.

I also remembered just now that I had seen at another time, maybe a month ago, many pages put together, kind of like compiling pages for a book. I felt this meant it was important to print off/write down prayers, words, etc., and have hard copies on hand.

February 9th, 2023

Me: Dear Almighty God, I love you and I thank you for this time together! May you always be praised! Lord, God Almighty Father, are there any words you want me to write?

Lord God Almighty Father: Daughter, daughter, thank you for loving Me.

Me: Lord, thank you! Why would you thank me??

Lord, I don’t think I made a good confession. Like I forgot to pray for five days like the priest told me. Will it still count if I remember after a few days and then say the prayers? I feel bad.

Lord God Almighty Father: Daughter, ye of little faith! Of course your little love is important. But not because I need love. It is you returning a gift, and I will be bless you greatly. So few blessed today because so few ask. I shower you abundantly because you seek Me. To all My children, this is a time of many Grace’s for those who ask. ASK! PRAY! Pray continuously.

Your heart knows your answers, young one. Do not seek simple ways out when the Cross is for you.

Me: Yes, Lord.

Lord God Almighty Father: Seek Me out in all you do. Love your brothers and sisters. Hours of Adoration on your knees are needed. Please comfort/justify/repent (I was hearing several words at once and trying to make it out. Like there wasn’t one word to say it all in English?) for My Son Jesus.

Me: Justify?

Lord God Almighty Father: Justice is not for you to give, but your presence brings comfort for He will bring Justice to His people. Repent before your Lord!

Me: Thank you, Lord. Amen.

Lord God Almighty Father: Daughter, do not fear the night. Do not fear the discomfort or the pain the next few months will bring. Give yourself to Me completely, and you shall not fear.

Me: Lord, is it a personal discomfort or something broader?

Lord God Almighty Father: You must tighten your belt. Repent and get to confession often. Fast and pray. Daughter, as Lent comes, remember My time in the desert. Often I went without. But the angels brought Me comfort. You may call on them too. Even if you don’t see them, they can comfort you. Remember your guardian angel especially. You are not alone.

Me: Lord, please protect my family. Please spare us attacks of the devil. Protect us and all your believing children. But we’ll suffer if it be Your Will.

Lord God Almighty Father: You are right to give your will to Me. This is the only way to true peace.

Me: Should I look at any particular saint’s life or teachings or Gospel reading or Bible reading?

I see the following:

St. Peregrine

Mark 14:3

Leviticus 34